K…this post is going to break the rule about being short and sweet. But it’s what I need to write today. So feel free to read it as all one post, or split it up over a series of days!!
Over the weekend, I came down with a horrible migraine headache….again. I know my triggers, lack of caffeine, too much caffeine, not enough sleep, eating poorly, stress, anger. This time, it was stress. And so I was prayed over.
While the priest and 5 other women were praying over me, the priest had some insight about me. He knewthat I was carrying around some heavy stuff, and reassured me that Jesus was ready for me to put it all down. But he went further, and told me that this was not something I was carrying like a backpack, rather something deep inside that’s been buried for years; something that God didn’t put there. Boy did he hit the nail on the head with that. I was a little apprehensive in that moment that the Spirit was going to reveal to this man, and to these people (some of whom know my current struggles, and some who don’t) what the something that I am carrying around is. But he didn’t. He just allowed enough to say that it was deep, it was old, and it hurt.
But one more thing that was pointed out to me is that because of this ‘thing’ that I have deep inside me, I am costing myself joy.
Main Entry: joy
Etymology: Middle English, from Anglo-French joie, from Latin gaudia, plural of gaudium, from gaudēre to rejoice; probably akin to Greek gēthein to rejoice
1 a: the emotion evoked by well-being, success, or good fortune or by the prospect of possessing what one desires : delight b: the expression or exhibition of such emotion : gaiety